im falling apart. i just saw a commercial for coffee and it was about someones brother coming home and the girl put a bow on her brother and said ‘you were my gift this year’ and it made me start bawling. my mom set an empty seat for justin. i was like you bitch that doesn’t make this any easier for any of us. i never thought id miss him, we were never close. i’ve never felt so alone then i do with out him a phone call or plane ride away. i just want a hug. thats it.
i miss my brother so much. you don’t know how much you love someone until they are gone. i want to go back 10 years ago when he used to tuck me into bed so tight i could barely breath. it was a justin hug because he was too much of a man to wrap his arms around his little sister. i just want a justin hug right now. i’d give up anything right now to see him.