i love going places with “friends” and getting ignored the whole time, including when i am speaking directly at them. im going to cut off all of my hair and cry myself to sleep i think. i wish i had someone to hold my hand and cuddle close and tell me that yes, everything will be okay, just forget about those people and live for you and me. i’ve never had that im my whole life. at the moment thats all i need. someone who will pick up the phone for me at 3am and throw rocks at my window and smoke once a week with me. that is what i want, no what i need.