i hate this. today has been so bad. first i got into a fight with my dad, then i spilled my heart of to my exkindofalmostboyfriend about this kid that i wantwantwant but he wont answer me and it wasn’t awkward at all and i realized what a good guy joe really is on the inside. then i got into an accident with some annoying korian lady who was like bitchbitchbitch and wouldnt give me her info and then called the cops, andmy mom is so pissed. and im leaving for camp tomorrow morning. and apparently i have a huge attitude problem and i need to stop being a bitch, which i know but it fucking hurts so much when other people say it including both your parents. i just want to say good bye to my friends before i leave for 3 weeks. oh yeah. and everyone thinks me and chris are dating, no one understands that he is gay. wtf. if he weren’t gay we would prob be going out honestly haha but he is. and hes the best =].
July 2009
at the moment i am being ignored to death. am i really that annoying?
i had a good night last night. my headache is going away for now. crashed at jairos with chris alexa and matt. now i have to clean my house and get ready for michelle and warpedddd!. im so excited. shoot later with michelle and maybe joe idk. ahhh warped tomorrow i hope jairo comes because i dont want to pay for all the gas. party tonight my house. not alcohol just cupcakes. anyone is welcome =]
boysconfuseme
is somebody out there will somebody listen?
call me whenever silly. if i cant answer ill call you back asap. you know ill listen.
leaving for school soon. i want to go but then again i dont want to leave the apartment. i had a really good conversation with chris last night, i finally told someone what was going on in my head, i never ever ever ever do that. ever. i told him everything about something. i have a shirt designing class to get to and dont want to go. i wish i got into the dark room class i wanted to, or applied for the dress draping class. you know what i realized, i don’t know if i want to go to art school, i love art i love photography, but will i in 10 years. i have my whole life but im terrified of art school and the industry sucking it out of me. im at a toss up, art school or going to school to become a social worker of a high school guidance councilor or art teacher. i want to be happy in life and i don’t want to just settle. i can work art into everything i do, but do i want to make art my main work is the real question. will there be a day where inspiration dries up. today it seems like everyone wants to be a photographer, am i just another teenage girl that wants to be a photographer, sometimes i wonder where this dream came from because for as long as i can remember it has been around.
I CAN’T WAIT FOR THIRSTY THURSDAY AGAIN. 3 weeks strong this week, i hope.
chris’s birthday dinner with claire my adoptive mom. then we went to get ray. looked for johns ipod. got on the bus. went to main street got on the 7. chris’s tummy hurt =/. transfered to the r. went to 8th. walked to swish. ran into some girls matt and john hooked up with the week before and never called back. sat down, switched spots. 4 sake bombs and they rushed the bill on us. got cigarettes. started walking to the train. someone asked me where st. marks was and i told them. we later ran into them again 5min later. made friends with them, went to st. marks witht hem. bought 40s. i drank jairos and rays haha. ray threw up. we told ray about chris. john hooked up with one of the girls we met. ray was cock blocking. chris thought the french girl what cock blocking was. we got on the 6 with some icelandic douchbags who were cute but mean. got off at grand central to get the 7. lost matt and chris who went to pee somewhere. got on the 7. jairo would not shut up about having to pee and wanted to get off the train. we were loud and obnoxous the whole time and everyone was staring at us. started making out in the middle of the subway and freeked a little italian lady out. had to hold jairo annd john down from getting off the train before main street. still dont know where chris and matt are. stilll have to pee. everyone went to the bathroom in the street, i went to mcdonalds haha. waited for the 25, it never came, ray took the 14 home. argued about going to college point or not. got on the 44 and walked home with chris. other assholes went to jairos.noone would stop texting me. went to bed at like 3.30. got up at like 9. completely sober and not hungover. this is a story to tell your kids one day. haha best night ever. =]]. im glad i rememberd most of it
what to get a 17 gay teenage boy for his birthday other than condoms…
kids the biggest asshole. your just an asshole. thats it. next time i see him i plan on punching im the face. fair warning has been given.
